yet another day passes by....and the things are still the same...dreams are still dreams...you pretend they are finally coming true...talking to yourself you seem so happy, there it goes, that smile on your face
you sit and look outside the window...wishing that cigarette pack was still full..than you see a man....not to tall..handsome..young...in the cold..and you start wondering about his life...does he have dreams or has he fulfilled them?
you finally run to your room and grab your camera...and run back to take a photo of him...looking so tall and lonely...but he is gone by the time you come back..no one out...and you star coughing ....you regret smoking that pack but your body is shaking for just ONE MORE....just one more wont do any harm...you are desperate...run back to your room and take all the money...the only money you have....nine dollars and thirteen cents...ITS ENOUGH ....for 20 more tasteful cigarettes....SHIT you forgot you aren't 18....thinking of a plan...all by yourself at home..SO DESPERATE to taste the tobacco in your mouth and lungs you bag for the pack at the store....finally the guy gives in and you tell him to keep the change and you walk out....into the cold...hands shaking barely can light it up...the wind is so strong and there he is...standing inside the store...looking at the newspaper ..your cigarette falls out of your mouth ...and you don't even notice
he puts the paper down and notices that you are staring at him.. he gazes at you with his green velvet eyes and you cant take your eyes off of him...SO HAPPY inside to see him as if you have known him for ages you smile wide and forget about the wind and the cold you pick up your cigarette and light it again..just staring at him , he smiles back.
So you walk in to make small talk...and when you open the door he vanishes....and yet again disappointed in yourself...forgot you are crazy and see things...you can keep him...in your mind...and think of him whenever you feel down...he will never disappoint you..you just walk out while the owner of the store is yelling in the background about you smoking inside....but you cant even hear it...everything goes silent for a min and you feel cold tears in your eyes ....soon, hopefully, you will start believing in yourself and things will get better.

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